WELCOME TO THE LAUNCH PAD.
DAY ONE. When the rocket is moved on the mobile transporter from its vertical hangar to the launch pad, the second so-called Wet Dress Rehearsal begins – the countdown timeline. Super-cold liquid oxygen will be loaded into the first and second stages, and the liquid hydrogen propellant will be loaded for the rocket's inaugural flight. Everything was nearly ready when the problem happened. A valve setting had been changed following the first dress rehearsal, and that caused a rise in pressure that tripped up the monitoring software and forced a hold.
Here in the Control Room, everything stopped. We were trying to figure out how to get this bird off the ground – inaugurate the first Blog about the forthcoming (well, sooner or later) book ROCKET LESSONS, a memoir of growing up a rocket kid in the fifties – when we realized we had not actually finished the flight plan.
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Why are many of us, in short, writing about our childhoods in similar suburbs, places filled with post-War optimism and brand new Chevies?
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My father had no interest in religion. He did not believe a Creator lived up there beyond the blue and might be controlling things Dad should be controlling. Dad was one of the brash young men in the 1950s who fired missiles into the ozone layer, a slide-rule god making thunder over the
His first assignment at Space Technology Laboratories was to work on the development of the Atlas,
About a year after our San Felipe trip, Dad was on his fourth launch and first prescription for tranquilizers. Mom always made it an occasion when Dad came home from a trip. She gathered us in the living room and tried to restrain us from jumping on the couch next to him, a greeting rarely with good result. She served the first of his martinis and Dad, who could not talk about the details of his project, still found creative ways to complain.
"Bitch of a trip! I was surrounded by incompetents." He pushed his glasses back up; they slid down again on his perpetually sweat-beaded face. His large, green eyes looked watery and bloodshot, as though something in the air irritated him. Something was always irritating him. His nerves were so frayed he carped at anything or anyone: child, cat, chair, newspaper.
"Watch where you're going!" he said to the lamp, when he switched it on and it tipped over. "What's the matter with you?"
Mom reacted as if he had the measles. She offered nibbles and drew the curtains. She admonished us to cocoon him in tiptoe silence. He sat slack, unknotted tie ends splayed on his shirt. Even his crew cut seemed wilted. Holding the martini, he wove expletives into stories with no beginning or end, much of which we could not understand.
"You know what Dolph says to me? He says, 'Mitch, you got six inches lift-off on that last Atlas?' 'Yeah,' I says, 'before it exploded, we did.' Then you know what he says?"
What was an Atlas? Who was Dolph? We did not know, but we pretended. "What?"
"He says, 'You didn't get much altitude.' 'At least it got off the stand.' Jeez, that guy bitches me off."
Then Dad remembered how much he could not say. He drank for awhile without speaking, head twitching in that over-the-shoulder jerk we had come to identify as "Don't go near Dad." Even though it was not messed, my mother smoothed her wavy brown hair as she stood in the kitchen, looking over the pass-through bar into the living room. She smoothed her hair again. Her blue eyes blinked rapidly, as though smoothing and blinking would clear the picture and restore Dad to civility.
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If you're just interested in rockets, here's a site you should check out: http://spaceflightnow.com. And if you're interested in rocket history, NASA has some good stuff at: http://www.grc.nasa.gov/WWW/K-12/TRC/Rockets/history_of_rockets.html
When were you first aware that Americans were entitled to control space and everything downward from there? Do you have the secret urge to memoir? Stay tuned for more on these and other themes. Write your own blog on related topics and let me know so I can link to your blog. Let's network, all you backward-looking Boomer bloggers. I know you're out there, reading. And probably writing.
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Rachel